Monday, November 17, 2014

late night deep thoughts

[pulled this out from last year.....LOOK AT HOW SMALL HE WAS.]

It's late. I should be in bed. But I feel like writing and I have so many different thoughts running through my head right now that there's no way I could sleep without writing some things down, even if it's in a crazy disorderly (aka how I write) kind of way. Here goes.

This year has been big. I turned 16. I started driving. I started teaching piano. Three families of street evangelists lived on our farm for 3 weeks. I went to Veritas and had the best week of my life there. I've met some pretty amazing people and made new friends. I started a girls prayer group. I've felt closer to the Lord than I ever have before. But now that the year is ending and we've gotten back into a routine of school, chores, etc, etc....I've felt that life has kind of slowed down. (Or at least as slowed down as you can get in a family of 10 people.)

And lately I feel like I've been waiting....waiting on God to do more big things in my life. As if I can't be truly content unless there's always something exciting going on. But the past couple days I've been thinking - there are TONS of things going on, all the time! Little, but still always incredible things that happen every day, that I. Just. Miss. The first snowfall of the year, two baptisms in our church, things that the siblings say that are just the CUTEST, being with my family 24/7, living on the farm of my dreams, having the most uplifting friends, helping my mom organize a seminar that she spoke at, teaching piano to 4 new students, spontaneous (Christian) dance parties with my brothers, Christmas being only 5 weeks away (!!!).....things that are as simple as getting 91 on my practice theory exam this week are things that I know God is doing and I feel blessed by. I just need to learn how to see them.

It's like a verse in the song 10,000 Reasons says: "For all Your goodness I will keep on singing, ten thousand reasons for my heart to find."

Monday, September 29, 2014

Every night at Veritas youth conference, I had the opportunity to lead worship - me and a couple other kids. I loved every second of it and could have done it forever. Sitting there at the piano, looking at all these kids my age and seeing them truly worship. I had never even seen that before. It was SO GREAT knowing that I wasn't the only Christian teen out there who really cared about their faith, who really loved their Saviour, and who worshiped Him with all their hearts. Then after we had worshiped and sang together, the girls and guys would go into their dorms and reflect about our day - what stood out to us in the talks we heard and any questions we might've had. We would always end up praying, thanking the Lord for everything we'd learned and what He was teaching us. And every night I would go to sleep with my heart so full.

Now because I loved that part of Veritas so much, and because I couldn't wait till next year to do it again, I started my own girls prayer/worship group. This Friday was our first get together, and it. was. AWESOME. We started out with some singing (man, I didn't know "It is Well With My Soul" was such a powerful song till then) and you could hear every one of us just singing our hearts out. We didn't sound too bad if I do say so myself. :P When we had done almost an hour of singing, we all read a devotional that I had picked out. (here if you wanna take a look) It was based out of the verse in Psalm 37 - "Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart." The main focus of the devotional, (well it was really an article) was how important it is as a Christian to really delight yourself in Christ. Not just in your morning Bible-reading, but on a moment-to-moment basis. It made you ask yourself - what's distracting me from my relationship with Jesus? How can I really delight myself in Him? Then it gave you practical advice on how you could keep a quiet mind in order to be open to Him, 24/7.  Anyways, long story short, after we had read the article and discussed a whole bunch of things we found interesting about it, we got to spend some time together bringing all our worries and burdens to Jesus. Seriously, if you want to get close to someone, pray with them. Because after we finished praying, I felt a cool new connection with all these girls in my life. 

It was really the first time for me to do something like this on my own - to personally invite my friends over and actually lead them in worship and prayer. I would say it was an amazing experience, and I can't wait till next time we can do it. Now I'm taking my own advice and working on delighting in my Saviour. :)

Monday, September 8, 2014

I'm not dead

Hi. It's me. Sydney. The girl who hasn't posted or kept up a blog for 6 months. I'm not dead. I'm alive and well, actually. If you can call sitting in front of a computer and trying to think of what to write "alive." :P

It's been a busy few months, as usual. And I'm not just saying that as my excuse for falling off the edge of the earth unannounced. It actually has been really busy. 

3 families, whom we have named the "street preachers" lived on our property for 3 weeks. (another story for another time...)
We hosted a family band of 11 for a day.
My grandparents had their 50th anniversary and we had a fun few days with cousins.
I've been teaching piano for almost a full year now.
I got on Instagram (follow meee...@sydneymaretzki98 ;) )
I got a Facebook page ( + - like them now.)
I started driving and will have my full license next week. (!!!)
And....I went to a youth conference that pretty much changed my life. (more to come)

So, yeah! Fun times. Hopefully now that school's started I'll be back in the writing mood. I'm not even sure if anyone even reads this blog anymore. But if that's the case, even just me writing things down helps me reflect on what's happening in my life.

For now, I'll just leave you with a combo of pictures from my big girl camera and a few from IG.

Monday, March 3, 2014

february 13 - 28

Happy March, people! 

February is over. This year is going to go by so fast if every month keeps going by like this. 

Here's the latest photos!

As always, feel free to shout out your favs!

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

one month ago today

It all started with a birthday party....

.....for me! For my 16th birthday, (yeah, I'm suuuper late on posting this...) Auntie Sandee wanted to throw me a tea party with all the cousins, aunties and grandmas. I walked into her house and was instantly blown away at the decorations, the AMAZING food, and the amount of gifts at my chair!

After a delicious lunch, the appointed gift-passer passed me the first gift, and with it a little envelope. It was then explained to me that there were 16 gifts for me to open, with a verse for each one chosen by my aunts and grandmas. Uh, WOW! Auntie Sandee made some extra special by putting my name in them.

"Let Sydney use her gifts to serve others, faithfully administering your grace in its various forms so that in all things you will be praised and receive glory." 1 Peter 4:10-11

"As Sydney considers her gifts, cause her to lean not on her own understanding, but acknowledge you in all her ways, so that you - the One who created and gifted her will make her paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6

"You made some people apostles, some prophets, some evangelists, and some pastors and teachers. Show Sydney where she fits into your divine arrangement, and let her use her gifts to prepare your people for works of service so that the body  of Christ may be built in love." Ephesians 4:11-16

"Thank you that Sydney is your workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which you prepared in advance for her to do." Ephesians 2:10

"Thank you for the special gift you have given Sydney. Show her how her gift differs from the gifts you have given others and let her be generous, diligent, cheerful in using it." Romans 12:6-8

"Show Sydney how to use her gifts and talents wisely, being faithful with the abilities you have given her." Matthew 25:21

"And those who are wise shall shine  like the brightness of the sky above; and those who turn many to righteousness like the stars forever and ever." Daniel 12:3

"Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." Romans 12:2

"Give instruction to a wise man, and he will be still wiser; teach a righteous man, and he will increase in learning." Proverbs 9:9

"She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue." Proverbs 31:26

"Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord shall be praised." Proverbs 31:30

"And whatever you do in word or deed do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through him to God the Father" Colossians 3:17

"For it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure." Phillipians 2:13

"The Lord is faithful and will give you strength." 2 Thessalonians 3:3

"Let all that you do be done in love." 1 Corinthians 16:14

"Guard your heart above all else for it determines the course of your life." Proverbs 4:23

"Always be ready to listen and slow to speak." James 1:19

As I'm reflecting on these verses, I'm realizing that I need to make every one of them a prayer for my life. I  feel so loved by all the women in my family as they direct me to God's Word, teaching me that He is the One who I need to look to for direction in my life.

So, thank you so so much to Auntie Sandee for being a great hostess and godly woman in my life. You are always so amazingly generous and hospitable. I'm so thankful for you and all my other aunties who made it all happen!

Thursday, February 13, 2014

my valentine

I like a boy. His name is Brock.

He's really cute. He has super long lashes and the most beautiful blue eyes I've ever seen. His laugh is one of my favourite sounds in the world. And he's 21....months.

Seriously, though. I am just so grateful to be a stay-at-home big sis. How else would I be able to see my little Brocky (and all my other siblings) grow up right in front of me? I wouldn't know the feeling of daily slobbery kisses and choking hugs. Here, I wouldn't trade any of that for the world. Here, I'm being homeschooled, while most girls my age are dating and getting their hearts broken every couple weeks. So even when I'm not following the "normal" culture of having to constantly be with a guy, I'm happy.

"Oh, come on! Dating's not bad, it's just for fun! Aren't you lonely?"

No. No I'm not. And what's the point of dating when you are always going through a vicious cycle of getting together, breaking up, getting together, and breaking up? What kind of person would want a heart that's fallen apart so many times?

This is why I've chosen to, instead of dating and trying out different guys all the time, to save my heart for the one I'll spend the rest of my life with. Instead of always being with a guy, I'm with my family. And I'm learning to lean more on God, too. Because He's really the only one who can fill that desire to be loved truly and unconditionally (and repair broken hearts, too). The least I can do is to love and serve Him back.

january 24 - february 12

Guys, I have a confession to make.......I missed a day. Hey, at least I made it past January! And I'm still going to aim to do one a day for the rest of the year.

Hope you're all having a great week! Which one's your fav?